Prayer for my Mother

My mommy went into surgery. Her white blood cell count is insanely high and her infection is worse than last time. I feel hopeless and I just want to be with her. I love her so much and I just want everyone to pray for her. EVERYONE.

Dear God,

I know that sometimes You and I disagree and don't get along, but I still trust in You and believe in You. There are many times I need guidance because I sin and many times I need guidance because I am confused, but this time I need guidance because this is the worst pain I have ever felt. Hopelessness. True hopelessness. Not hopelessness caused by a silly boyfriend or some selfish feeling, but hopelessness because I can't be with my mother and I can't help her. And, if I were there, I would be just as hopeless as I am now. All I can do is ask You to forgive me when I stray from my faith and to please take care of her pain and her infection. I have this sick feeling in my stomach and I know it is sinful doubt, a turning feeling suggesting that maybe You aren't listening. I have to believe You are there! I am so scared and I can't imagine how frightened my mom really is. Please sit with her because I cannot. Hold her hand and comfort her where I cannot. Let her know she is loved and not alone. When I think of the smell and feeling of where she is, only the worst enters my mind. Don't let this pessimism haunt her like it does me. Please, just let everything work out!

Amen.